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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 05 Sep 2019 0 comments
Blog Posted by Brandy Edenfield

 

As a mom, I recognize that there is one HUGE area that I seem to continuously fall short in. If you’re like me, you may be thinking “she can narrow it down to just one major area? I feel like I could come up with a list of 20 just off the cuff.” Well, me too, but I can, with certainty say I repetitively fall short in a major area with my kiddos. I make EVERYTHING a life lesson! And, sadly enough my husband does this also. THIS DRIVES OUR KIDS CRAZY!

 

 

God gave me the gift of a “counselors heart” so I’m always asking questions like:

  • “How do you feel about that?”
  • “What could you have done differently?”
  • “Where do you think that comes from?”

Brian was blessed with the “heart of a teacher” so he asks questions like:

  • “What did you learn from this?”
  • “Could a long-term plan have created a different outcome?” Or even simply
  • “Did you think this was gonna end well?”

 

 

 

We, as a parent team, are not great at listening to our kids. We are both leader-type personalities so we can dominate our kids with our ideas and plans for them in a way that makes them feel unheard.  We want so much for our kids to have an easier life than we had, learn lessons more simply than we did that we try (unintentionally) to rush them to a positive outcome. But don’t we all know that life has the ability to teach us things through experiences that our teachers and parents can’t teach with words?

 

My children need to figure some things out for themselves. My job is to guide them not strong-arm them to the result I’m wanting.Click To Tweet

 

 

So, we came up with a plan to help our communication. At the beginning of a serious talk, the “listener” will ask “Are you looking for advice or guidance or do you simply want me to listen?” You wouldn’t believe how much this one question can transform communication. It helps the listener to know what hat to put on- coach or counselor. It also helps in the area of self-control because knowing what my loved one needs, means if I choose the opposite, I hurt them intentionally so it helps me to do the right thing. Not always of course! I mess up FOR SURE! But my heart is good in that I long to be better. Brian & I continue to strive to be better each day as parents. And this is a tool we have learned to practice in our marriage as well.

 

Try this today with your loved ones. Let them tell you what they need from you and practice giving it to them. It will help heal your relationships and also teach you to be a better listener. After all, God gave us two ears but only one mouth –  that was purposeful! Listen more than you speak.

 

 

 

God teaches us this in James 1:19: “Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.” Click To Tweet

 

Bless your day!

 

Prayer

Father, help me to be a person who is slow to speak, quick to listen, and slow to be angry. To show value as you do. Thank you for helping me to grow in this.

In Jesus name. Amen.

Your hearts matter to us!

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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 30 Aug 2019 1 comment
Blog post by Brandy Edenfield

Change is so hard for me. Is it hard for you? Like, I really like the idea and excitement of the possibility of change, but the reality of walking out “change” in my life with joy and grace takes A LOT of intentional effort on my part.

 

My family recently made a move to a new city with my husband’s work. The opportunity was HUGELY exciting… four months ago! Our family talked about the “fun” of a new place. We had many conversations about “simplifying” our lifestyle since we were moving to a much smaller town and home. We hashed out details on how to be more intentional with our family time. Our kids were overjoyed with the opportunity to be going back to public school after three years in a small private school with limited athletics.

I personally felt hopeful for my work-life situation in this season. See, I have been a CPM (Certified Prayer Minister) with CUMI for nearly four years and in that time I have tried RELENTLESSLY to find work/family balance in my life. Constantly feeling like one area or the other was always lacking. So, my thought was, I’ll drive to the office to see clients one day, stay at my mom’s house and handle other office needs the next day. Creating in my life 5 full days to be wife/mom/homemaker and 2 full days to devote myself to work/ministry. EASY PEEZY RIGHT?

 

 

I literally used the words EASY PEEZY probably 50 times over that four months when laying out my plan to others. But remember, I’m not great at change.  So, recognizing that I need to be intentional in order to execute this well I laid out a plan to arrive 9 days before the kids start school which would also let me try out my new work schedule while their schedule was open. I HAD A PLAN!!!! 10-days ago my family made the move. All went just as we planned that day. IT WAS A GOOD DAY!

 

 

The following morning my father-in-law’s wife passed away. This meant getting our kids back to my mom in Foley the next day and then traveling to Savannah, Ga for four days to help with plans, attend the funeral & help him wrap up loose ends.

 

We returned an hour before Hailey’s senior year school orientation at which time we found out her transcripts were incomplete. Several other “unplanned” inconveniences presented themselves to us over the next few days. It was a whirlwind! And none of it was on my “agenda”.  Remember, change is hard for me.

 

 

 

 

But I truly wanted to do this well. I wanted to not only keep my peace but be a representative of peace in the storm. I would love to say it’s been a piece of cake and I’ve had total success.  For the most part, I have kept my peace. But I’ve also had moments of anxiousness in my belly. Moments of frustration with my family. Moments of missing my routine. And yes, even moments of wanting my mom (at 43) LOL.

 

 

What I know right now as I sit in this cute little coffee shop, inviting you into my struggles, is that I can make all the plans in the world (plan every minute & every detail- and I believe it’s wise to plan ahead) however even with all my human planning, LIFE HAPPENS! It’s messy!

 

 

 

I need to invite Jesus into my plans to HAVE HIS WAY! To teach me to be flexible. He reminds me that my peace comes from Him, not my situations.  He teaches me in these seasons that I need to be humble and to acknowledge He is God because His ways are better than mine.  So this morning, I took extra time to read & say thank you to My God who promises to be my refuge & hiding place. To be my burden bearer. And to give me a peace that passes understanding.

 

Do you remember to invite Jesus into it? He is so good at directing our steps as He faithfully brings peace in every anxious step we take.

 

Prayer

Father God, I am facing a lot of changes right now, (some good, some hard), I need your help to overcome and experience your peace in the midst of the journey. Thank you for your help. In Jesus name, amen.

 

 

 

Posted by: In: Uncategorized 13 Aug 2019 1 comment
Blog post by Brandy Edenfield

 

 

 

“I thought my healing would look different. I think most of us have a preconceived notion of what it looks like to be free and healed. I’m learning more and more through my process, and through helping others with theirs, miracles are instantaneous but healing is a journey. We walk out our healing, we participate in it.”

 

 

 

 

 

I believe it was about two years ago in one of our  CROSSING2FREEDOM classes that I first met Cheryl. Let me describe Cheryl to help you understand the magnitude of what I learned from her. Cheryl is a 6-foot tall private investigator | real estate agent. For years before we met, she was a bounty hunter. TOTAL HARD-CORE CHIC! This woman looked like one of the most confident, capable, powerful women I had ever laid eyes on.  She talked confident & educated. I must admit, I was completely intrigued and wanted to glean from her strength.

 

I remember watching Cheryl diligently take notes and ask questions each week. She was soaking it all in. At the weekend conference that followed the class, she was all in for every prayer and was visibly moved by each teaching. She came back for the next class when it started and in that first class, Cheryl shared something that pierced my heart and gave me a fresh revelation. I’ve since heard her share this truth multiple times since then and every time it brings me to tears.

 

 

Cheryl in all her 6-foot tall beauty said this:  “Before I took this class and learned about my identity, I would meet people and say (with an outstretched hand) ‘Hi, I’m Cheryl. Who do you say I am?’ And I would be whoever they said or perceived me to be.”

 

WHOA! That was a punch right to my gut. I too had lived this way subconsciously every day before I learned who I was in Christ. But I was somehow shocked that this woman battled with her identity. My experience and education should’ve safeguarded me from this shock, but it didn’t! How could SHE be insecure? God, used Cheryl to show me that we are all broken and in need of validation until we believe the truth about who HE says we are.

 

 

I recognize today that my healing does not mean I never struggle with my identity or my own insecurities. It doesn’t mean my self-talk is always positive and that I walk each moment in Godly confidence. It does, however, mean that I check my heart, my actions, and my words regularly to line me up with God and who He says I am. I recognize much quicker when I’m shrinking myself down to make others like me or to make them more comfortable. I recognize when I’m giving others the “mask version” of Brandy. And I readjust and choose authenticity.

 

 

 

 

 

One of my favorite things is spending time with strong, “journeying” women that share the truth about themselves and their struggles. I love that Cheryl still tells this story every chance she gets and she always follows it up with examples of how she does better with this but how it still tries to creep when. She always points women to God’s love and grace to constantly be renewing her. I JUST LOVE THIS KIND OF HUMILITY and HONESTY.

 

 

 

I’m so grateful for my journey and the journeys of others that inspire me and encourage me. If you’re lacking these types of people in your life, pray for God to bring them into your life. And when He does, take off your mask & share your truth- THIS IS LIFE CHANGING!

 

 

Prayer

Father God,

Thank you that you bring the right people for us to link arms with and to do life with.  We love you and thank you for our identity is in Christ alone.

Help us where we are weak in this. In Jesus name. Amen.

 

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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 30 Jul 2019 1 comment

 

When I hear the word restoration it reminds me of an old chest getting another chance to shine and be what it was once meant to be.  As a master craftsman begins the process of stripping away its old stain to make way for the new and replacing worn-out hardware…the latter beauty of that chest can be even more beautiful than the former because its aged lines and rugged edges of where it’s been coming through.   The renovator isn’t about making it altogether something else but upgrading the existing that it can be utilized a little longer…perhaps generations to come.  Never taking away one scratch from where it’s been because those scratches tell a story.

What are your scratches and dings saying about where you have been? Do you try to cover them in shame and guilt or will you bring them before the Master Craftsman and creator of all things, allowing Him to restore the beauty intended all along? Inclusive of every scratch and rut created along the way He heals the wounds but what if when the blood covers it also reveals the beauty, as it runs into every rut, every ding, filling every crevice along the way.  We are reconciled to our Master and all things are new.

 

 

“Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a NEW creature; old things are passed away; behold, ALL things become new.'  – 2 Cor.  5:17Click To Tweet

 

Prayer

Father come to heal every place in me that I am tempted to keep covered in guilt and shame. I come now to the foot of the cross of Jesus and welcome His precious blood to flow to every place.  Allow every scratch and ding to tell a story about my faithful KING.  In Jesus name. AMEN.

 

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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 25 Jul 2019 0 comments

Crossing2Freedom

 

 

The cage door is open and we can fly…but how?

 

“If the Son, therefore shall make you free, you shall be free indeed…”- John 8:38

 

 So often we quote this verse and verses like them, without really experiencing them.  Are you living a life that looks free indeed?

  • Is it really a blessed life?
  • Your personal best life?
  • Is there any area of your life you would say is not up to speed?
  • Like your trudging through mud up to your waist and feel stuck?

You’re not alone, many of us have these areas in different seasons or circumstances of life.  There is good news, this kind of freedom can be experienced in EVERY area of our lives!  We only need to extend an invitation to Christ to enter that part of our lives and bring healing and wholeness.  This comes by revelation and by learning from those who have gone before to point the way.

We are here as a ministry to do just that.  Come join us and see what Jesus has for you in this season.  Perhaps you have dealt with a lot of hurts and have experienced a lot of healing already.  However, there is that one area that keeps popping up, it helps to remember this is a journey…not a destination.  There will always be those places.  You begin to recognize them more easily and are able to deal with them more quickly.

 We have the tools to help you live a forgiving living lifestyle. To experientially be an overcomer.   Our fall classes will begin very soon. Dates and locations will be posted on our website at: www.cumi.live/crossing2freedom/.

 This is also where you can register for the upcoming classes.  

 

Prayer

Father, I pray that this one reading this post right now will know how much you love them and how READY Jesus is to meet them right where they are.

Help them by your Spirit to come running to you instead of hiding in shame.  Let your healing touch be experienced by them.  In Jesus name, amen.

Posted by: In: Uncategorized 12 Jul 2019 2 comments
Blog by Brandy Edenfield

 

One of the most powerful lessons I’ve learned through this ministry and the CROSSING2FREEDOM classes is this: when my immediate response to a situation or personality is big and quick, there’s a deeper root issue causing the anger or pain. I recognize now that in these instances I need to get alone with God & ask Him to reveal the root. WHAT GOD REVEALS HE WANTS TO HEAL.  I had a recent situation that made this abundantly clear to me. My 19-year-old daughter was home from college for the summer being a student-athlete therefore not permitted to work during “season” which starts early July and runs through until Christmas break. So, she needed to work hard & save diligently to cover her expenses for those 6 months.

Though we nagged relentlessly she drug her feet on getting a job for two weeks, leaving her with only 6 weeks to work & save.  Once she started working, she was not as strict with her schedule & saving as she needed to be and was ultimately gonna come up short at summers end. Her dad & I had concerns but vowed to not rescue her but to let her learn this lesson when it came.

 

 

With only two weeks left to work, she had a verbal altercation with a co-worker and was so upset, she left work. She called me crying hysterically & telling me all the horrendous things this young man had said to her. I wasn’t sympathetic. My response was “You left your job because someone was mean to you? Unacceptable! You don’t have the financial margin in your life to quit your job.” She didn’t like my response.

 

When Brian and I arrived at home, she told her dad the details of the situation and I felt completely enraged. So much so that I had to acknowledge that my feelings we far too intense to be just about this situation, so I excused myself into my bathroom.

I looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself “what emotions are you feeling? What pain is this hitting on inside me that I would feel such anger?” I began to pray, asking Holy Spirit to reveal the root. (Total transparency here) I didn’t feel anything come to me and I continued to be very angry.

 

Brian came into the bathroom and said, “Babe, I know you’re upset and this might not be the best time to say this but I think what she did was right. Leaving work was the right thing to do when management permitted her to be so disrespected by another employee. As her father, I’ve never spoken to her like that & we’ve raised her to stand up to people that think they can. Especially a man! She did what we taught her.”  

 

 

 

Y’ALL- at that moment I knew he was right. (But this is how faithful God is)- these are the words that came out of my mouth as my throat tightened up & tears poured from my eyes:

 

“When you are a young girl without margin in your life, specifically financially, you’ve got to compromise yourself.  Laugh at jokes that are inappropriate and disgusting. Tolerate an “accidental” brush up against you at the job.  Smile through conversations that make your skin crawl.

 

 

My husband stood there shocked, reaching out to me and said  “Wow! Did that happen to you?”  The reality was yes it had. More than once. I said  “Yes. The worst time was when I was pregnant with her was working so hard to save and get prepared for her birth, my boss was despicable but I needed the job for our future. His comments were so atrocious that I vomited twice.” As he hugged me I sobbed on his shoulder.  (By this time, I was crying so hard, the words were hard to get out). I Cried for the young woman inside of me that had to compromise who she was.

 

 

 

It was then that I cried for my daughter that had the courage to say No, I won’t compromise who I know I am, even if I don’t have margin in my bank account.” My tears of pain had become tears of honor, pride, and gratitude.

 

 

 

 

 

I realized that the freedom that a young girl has when she has created margin in her life that is far greater than just money in the bank. She can say ‘NO! You’re not gonna talk to me like that!’ Or ‘I quit’.' Click To Tweet

 

 

 

This generational curse had been broken by my brave girl.  However, I had no idea that pain was inside of me. No idea how deeply I had been affected by that. No idea the shame & fears I was projecting on my daughters because of this issue in me. But I’m grateful that God knew and  HE saw fit to bring it up so He could heal my heart.  So, when your response is BIG and disproportionate to the situation, ask yourself & ask Holy Spirit “what’s at the root of these emotions?” WHAT GOD REVEALS HE HEALS.  

 

Prayer

Papa God!

You are so faithful to reveal those things that hurt us deeply, so that the matchless power of the cross can come to heal equally as deeply and completely. Thank you that our past doesn’t define us and that our future generations are healed in the place of our surrender to you.  Bless this one who will read this today and say #metoo.  Who needs a touch from you. Pull them close and heal their hearts and subsequently their future generations. In Jesus name.  Amen.

 

 

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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 19 Jun 2019 3 comments

Blog Post by Brandy Edenfield

 

Too many broken pieces! When you look around you or even AT yourself or your situation, what is the “too” you see?

  • Too Big?!
  • Too far gone?!
  • Too messy?!
  • Too much pain?!

 

Nearly four years ago, what I saw in my world was a close family friend named Jesse (we were raised like family and I called him brother) that had been addicted to heroin for 12 years. Jesse had struggled with drugs and alcohol for several years before he was introduced to heroin, so the destructiveness of addiction had been active for nearly two decades. Jesse had gone to four inpatient, secular rehabs, but each time he was back on heroin within days; twice he confessed to using in rehab. He spent his time with scary, dangerous people. He himself had become a user of people, a thief, and a liar. Those of us who loved him could barely remember the beautiful little boy that always smiled and laughed & told silly jokes. That boy was buried in the rubble of addiction. If I’m truly transparent, I should confess, I felt Jesse was a “lost cause”.   He appeared to be “too far gone.”

 

 

At this time, I was active in Christians United Ministries (*C.U.M.I), teaching the good news and hope to broken people daily, yet I looked at Jesse’s life and felt complete hopelessness. I remember one particular night, [after a late-night call from Jesse telling me he had been badly beaten by some dealers he owed money to], I hung up and fell to my knees in my bedroom, sobbing, saying to my husband “my brother’s gonna die from this. I don’t believe even God can rescue him.” I recognized that night that I PERSONALLY needed to see a miracle. I went into my prayer closet asking God to show me His glory and His might by healing and delivering Jesse. See, I was tired of hearing about “Gods power” and how “He still does miracles.” from other people. I was even annoyed at myself as I spoke these words to others, knowing I couldn’t make these declarations wholeheartedly. I needed to see Him do a miracle. My faith was at an all-time low.

 

 

But God!

Two months later, through many difficult circumstances, Jesse called one night, ready to take the help we offered him, to come from Pennsylvania to Alabama and go through a one-year TEEN CHALLENGE program. I’m so grateful to say that in August, my brother Jesse will celebrate four years sober and serving Jesus.  Little did I know, this was just the beginning for me!

Let me digress for a minute- I was raised in 12 Step programs and had long since decided I had had enough of addicts and their “recovery” journey. For years I steered clear of all things and people dealing with addiction. It was too painful and statistically, it was discouraging.

 

 

 

Through those two months before Jesse accepted help, my heart grew so heavy and burdened not just for Jesse, but for people in addiction. I began to feel deep compassion and pain for these people that were fighting this powerful stronghold. My heart hurt as I had never experienced. God was calling me to intercede on their behalf. I submitted to this. I prayed and petitioned on their behalf daily.  I did not, however, want to be part of their stories.

GOD HAD OTHER PLANS! He changed my heart. He started to bring back all the lessons I’d learned for years growing up around recovery and deliverance. My heart started to say “yes Lord, where do you want me to go?” And His response came in the form of phone calls to our ministry from people looking for counsel/help with addiction or loved ones with addictions. I continued to ask for courage and grace to walk out this calling and He continued to hear my prayers & meet my needs.

 

Walking it Out!

Several months ago, during prayer in our office, we were praying for a local women’s group that we would be bringing Crossing2Freedom (*C2F) to starting the next day. I felt a painful urgency in my prayers for these ladies. During this time, I was reminded of the story in Ezekiel 7 (titled VALLEY OF DRY BONES). In my mind’s eye I saw dry bones everywhere I looked. I felt the scripture come alive in my heart “Son of man, can these bones become living people again?” I felt hope stir up in my heart, knowing how this story would go.  AND IT HAPPENED!! Those bodies started to breathe! Not only did they breathe, but they became a great army!! HALLELUJAH!

As I type this, I’m overcome with hope and encouraged by the promise from our MIGHTY GOD that He will do what He promises! He will raise our dead, dry bones to life & create an army in the midst of a dry valley! C.U.M.I has since linked arms with several addiction/recovery ministries in our area am I am so grateful to be part of what God is doing.

 

 

YES INDEED- that “too big, too hard, impossible” thing in your life is a set up for a miracle! JESUS does BIG THINGS! In fact, I believe the bigger the mess, the more He rejoices in the resurrection evidence that HE ALONE can manifest.Click To Tweet

 

 

I don’t know if you’re encouraged, but I know I am! I serve a BIG BIG GOD- the God of the impossible. Nothing is too big or too hard for Him.
Read this story for yourself- pray for hope and speak life into your dead situation. Your God will show up & show out- it’s what He does.

Prayer

Father,

I ask you to breathe life into my circumstances and into those around me.  I trust you and believe you can cause these dry bones to live again.  Thank you in Jesus name. AMEN.

 

The prophet of God spoke to those bones and he heard a great rattling as the bones reconnected and he saw muscle and flesh grown over those bones. The prophet heard God say “Speak a prophetic message and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, O breath, from the four winds! Breathe into these dead bodies so they may live again.” 

–  Ezekial 7

 

Posted by: In: Uncategorized 31 May 2019 1 comment

Blog Post by Twila Crawford

 

Ever have one of those days or even seasons that it seems like everything you have believed you were to be about or your purpose is coming into question, seemingly hijacked?

 

You’re dredging through mud up to your waist?  One moment you were confident,  bold,  and ready to tackle all that was inside you, a dream becoming reality kind of stuff…but then…that season creeps in…suddenly everything seems upside down and you begin to believe perhaps you made it all up?   Spiritual amnesia sets in and you can’t see clearly anymore.

 

I know I have had those moments, even seasons. Remember we have all had these moments at one time or another.  We have a very real enemy that doesn’t rest. Read on, there is hope for you.

 

 

 

'For I know the plans I have for you, ' says the Lord.  'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.' - Jer. 29:11Click To Tweet

 

 

 

Truth Bearers

 

Friends this is when God sends those special people around you that speaks into your life in such a way that you feel like you could create a whole universe and are fully confident it will be inhabitable…all the while you are shaking in your boots at the mere thought of it all?

 

They point you back to Jesus and will remind you of all that God has been building on the inside of you on your life journey while lovingly dispelling the lies that are robbing you of your purpose and vision. After all, they see the bigger picture of you and what’s in there even when you can’t.

 

 

Scribes

 

When you get stuck and lose your way they are scribes who remind you where you were and how far you have come.  These ones have superman like vision to see right through all of your muck to help you see the jewels buried deep inside. Yes, your universe-creating ability to them is a done reality and they will stop at nothing less until you can see it for yourself.

 

Moving forward is the only option in their eyes…they will help you find your missing tools.  That universe is becoming more possible, heck even plausible.  Community is so important. Find your people, you will need to remind them and they will be there to remind you.

 

Prayer

 Father, thank you for those whom you have put on our journey that point us back to Jesus and remind us of who we are.  They are jewels in your crown. Priceless.  Champions of the faith who build up and equip your body.  Let me be one of them.  In Jesus name. AMEN.

 

 

Posted by: In: Faith, Uncategorized 16 Apr 2019 1 comment

Blog post by Brandy Edenfield

 

I Love Matthew 6:34: “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

 

'If I’m real with you, worry is a struggle for me. Not just “worry” itself, but also, it’s the “sister struggles” that partner with it - 'fear & control'.   Click To Tweet

 

Fear has been the greatest tool of the enemy in my life for as long as I can remember, specifically the “what if” fears which invite worry.  As a little girl, I remember being very fearful of getting lost or left somewhere. I tried to control this fear by staying close to my parents at all times, even in our house. As a teenager, I had a deeply rooted fear of being disrespected or dishonored publicly. I tried to control this through aggression & defensiveness. As a young woman, that fear of rejection showed up in my life in the form of using people & rejecting others before they could reject me. I tried to control this by hardening my heart. My life was full of so many broken relationships. As a new mom, I experienced an extremely isolating fear of my daughter being harmed. Growing up in the north, I’d heard lots of stories about the racial division in the south, so in the first few months of mothering a bi-racial child in Savannah, Ga, my fear that she would be harmed took great hold of my heart. I tried to control this by staying in the house (doors locked & curtains drawn) for days.  Add a husband & two more babies- fear & worry & my need to control grew. The “what if” fears were a constant for me:

 

 

  • What if one of my kids get sick with a serious disease?
  • What if one of them gets hurt while I’m home alone with them & I don’t know what to do?
  • What if Brian has an accident at work or on the way home? 
  • What if he decides he doesn’t want to be married anymore? What if I do?

 

 

 

 

WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF????

Fear was CONSTANT in my everyday life. Thank God for Jesus, Murphy Toerner (my amazing counselor), Jan Hicks & CROSSING2FREEDOM classes. Because of them and their impact on my life, these strongholds were broken off my heart.

But don’t we know the enemy is a liar & schemer? Isn’t he relentless? In the areas I got free in, I became confident that those doors of fear were closed forever. So, he showed up in new ways. As God was opening doors professionally & in ministry, I began to have some new & powerful fears:

 

 

  • What if I can’t do this? 
  • What if the gifts they see in me aren’t enough or maybe not real?
  • What if being in full-time ministry costs my family greatly?
  • What if they ask me to become a “religious rule follower”

 

 

 

 

The list went on! I began to feel deep insecurity & started focusing on all my “lack” rather than Gods power & promises. I got caught up in the trap of “performance”- trying to earn my spot at the table. More fear!!! And in the midst of this season- we faced the toughest season of our lives with one of our children. It was a fight for her very life & ya’ll… the fear in this season was nothing short of TORMENTING! The fear that I opened the door to robbed me of my peace, stole my sleep & kept my body in revolt. It was tearing our life apart! The more fearful I got, the more I worried. This depth of worry was projecting fear into the future so I was cursing the future in addition to fear in today. So, I grappled for control- any control. I became a drill sergeant; a helicopter mom; a tyrant.

 

 

In our darkest day- Brian & I CRIED OUT TO GOD– we yelled at Him, we challenged His character & goodness OUT LOUD! Why were at the ends of ourselves! TRULY!

Smack dab in the middle of this desert, God gave us a word- SURRENDER!Simple word, right? Sure, it’s easy to say, but SO HARD to walk out in real life.
We asked a God to show us what that needed to look like. And we actively fought for our peace.

 

 

BREAKTHROUGH

For us that looked like:

  • Verbally renouncing fear, worry & control from our house, our hearts & our family.
  • We fasted.
  • We were consistent in prayer, meditation & devotional each morning.
  • We leaned into each other instead of trying to go it alone.
  • We changed what we watched on tv & what we listened to. 
  • We prayed TOGETHER every night.
  • We sought outside help from counselors, pastors, friends & even doctors. 
  • We talked about our struggles with real transparency.

 

God did what He does! He healed our hearts! He broke the chains of fear in my life! Is life magically carefree? NO! Is fear a distant enemy I no longer think about? NO! The enemy is real & he throws darts at my soul CONSTANTLY! He hates me & everything I love so he’s relentless in his efforts.

 

Here is what I can say for sure- God is bigger! He’s badder! And He’s tougher! He has good gifts like Peace, Love & a sound Mind for me. These are PROMISES! His promises for me & mine! These are GUARANTEES!!I can hang my hat on them.
So as Brian & I actively did our part, He, of course, was right there honoring us & giving us the fruit of His spirit! He took my fear, worry & control & He filled their spots in my life with peace, honor & rest.

 

PRAYER

 “Heavenly Father, I come before you confessing all of my fear, anxiety, and control.  I repent of the fear of ________________ and renounce it today.  I repent of the idolatry of it and for the lies I have believed about you. I trust and believe you. Break the power of the tormentors over my life as I choose the path of surrender.  I choose to lean into you and trust your highest best for my life. Help me Holy Spirit to learn and understand this path.  Teach me what leaning and relying upon you looks like in this life journey home heal my heart and speak your truth.”   – In Jesus name. Amen.

 

Life has challenges- but we can live a life free from the chains of fear & anxiety.
Surrender is the key to peace!
Bless you♥️

 

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Blog Post by Ann Kling

 

Last week, I listened to a choir rendition of “The Lion & The Lamb”. As the final chorus reached the crescendo, it moved me to tears. Yes, Jesus is both The Lamb of God and The Lion of Judah.

As I pondered the words lion and lamb, I remembered the old saying, “If March comes in like a lion, it will go out like a lamb”. Click To Tweet

 

This March could lay claim to the lion as storms and high winds marched across the country. It remains to be seen if it will ease out like a quiet, meek lamb.

 

 

 

 

Fierce Winds

We watched as the fierce winds broke off limbs from our massive oak trees and strew leaves and debris across our neighbor’s yard. I like to hear the wind whistle through the pine trees lining many of the lots in our community. I can hear it faintly blowing at the end of the block, gaining volume and strength as it rushes past my house. Did you ever wonder where does the wind come from and where does it go? Probably. Most have entertained that question as a child.

 

 

 

 

 

The mystique of the Wind

It is a mystery that you can’t see the wind or grasp it in your hand. You can only see the results of it passing by:              

  • An East wind divided the Red Sea for the Israelites to cross over on dry land
  • Jesus spoke to the wind and waves, “Peace, be still” and they obeyed
  • The floods came, and the winds blew down the house built on sand
  • A mighty rushing wind filled the house where they were praying in the upper room

 

 

 

My curiosity about wind led me to read John 3:7,8 where Jesus answered Nicodemus’ question about being born a second time. Jesus said, “Do not be surprised that I said to you,’ You must be born from above.’ The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So, it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” This prompted me to research the meaning of the Greek word for wind.Pneumameans: wind, breath, spirit

 

John 20: 22 Jesus breathed on them (disciples) and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit”.Click To Tweet

 

Wind of the Spirit

Just as we can’t see the wind, we cannot see the inner work of the Spirit within another person. But just as we can see the results of the wind blowing through the swaying trees, we can see the results of the Holy Spirit indwelling a believer.

Love                             Patience                                  Faithfulness

Joy                               Kindness                                  Gentleness

Peace                          Goodness                                Self-Control

Next time I see March roaring in like a lion, I will be thinking of The Lion of Judah working in my life through the wind of God, the Holy Spirit.

Prayer

“Father, may others see the good results of Your wind blowing in my life, so they may desire to have You work in their lives too.”

Posted by: In: Uncategorized 11 Dec 2018 1 comment
Blog Post by Brandy Edenfield

A friend of mine tearfully shared yesterday their unworthiness to receive Gods love & healing. What God started in my heart as a response has been on my mind ever since, expanding to overflow & growing my gratitude. So, this is my take on it!  People were separated from God because of sin. The only way to the Father was through sacrifices & rule following, so many rules in fact that it seemed the odds were stacked against them.

In my mind, I imagine a meeting of God, Holy Spirit & Jesus. In this visual, I see God shaking His head in frustration with people (He wasn’t surprised, just… annoyed.) Jesus, seeing the Fathers’ frustration and full of compassion offered Himself up, “Send me. I’ll go to them & teach them. I’ll be the final sacrifice.” And I imagine Holy Spirit(The great counselor) saying “this is a beautiful thing. I love it.” So, the Father, in sadness because He loves His son SO DEEPLY, agreed.

 

 

 

 

LOVE GIVES

 

A perfect baby was created inside a virgin(an untainted vessel) and was born in a nasty, dirty stable with animals (I won’t even go into the spiritual metaphor this was for us & our mess.) This child was pure perfection! A teacher to great scholars before He was a teenager. He grew up to be a kind, compassionate man. HE LOVED PEOPLE! ALL PEOPLE! And here’s the crazy part for me- HE LOVED THE REALLY BAD, MESSY PEOPLE A LOT! He spent time with them, even when religious people judged Him. He spent His adult life teaching about His Fathers wonderful heart for them & The Fathers love for all mankind. ALL mankind!

 

 

 

 

 

 

He simplified all the rules (there’s more but here’s the list of them:) 1. Love God 2. Love yourself & from these two loves, Love others. (See, what He was telling us was important; to live a life FULL & OVERFLOWING with LOVE. Click To Tweet

 

When we love God most, that changes who we are. When we learn to see ourselves the way He sees us & love & honor ourselves, we’re more generous with our love & our giftings because He breaks the lies of the enemy off of our hearts & our insecurities aren’t in control anymore. (SO, THEN we love others in the most beautiful way- from our overflow!)

 

 

 

 

LOVE LAYS DOWN LIFE FOR OTHERS

He poured Himself into people. And the time came for our ransom to be paid. To pay a debt with His life that was mine (and yours) & He prepared Himself. As the day drew near, He spent a lot of time talking to His Father. The heavy weight of what was before Him was so immense, He literally sweats blood & asked the Father “if there’s another way, do that instead (paraphrased)”. But He knew He was the one- the only perfect sacrifice– to end all sacrifices. His life would pay humanities debt IN FULL! 

 

 

 

JESUS was betrayed by a man He loved DEEPLY! He was beaten beyond recognition! LITERALLY- beaten to the point that it changed his appearance, almost to the point of death. VICIOUSLY BEATEN! The plan they made for his murder were HORRENDOUS, truly beyond comprehension. They made fun of Him & they tortured Him. All along, He had the power to change His situation with the blink of an eye. YET HE PRESSED ON!

 

 

 

 

LOVE IS A CELEBRATION

At one point, as the weight of my sin & your sin– the sin of all people was on Him, even the Father had to look away. Jesus was the ONLY person to ever experience a moment of “God turning His back on Him.” In the hopelessness of that moment, He asked “why have you left me? (Paraphrase)” The Father was with Him once again!

In complete agony, He still did what Jesus does & forgave the sins of a neighboring criminal & promised eternity with Him. And in His final moments on this Earth, He had great compassion for all people & on our behalf, He pleaded with the Father to forgive us & have mercy on our ignorance. Then He spoke the words “IT IS FINISHED!” And He SURRENDERED His life!

Oh yes!, there’s more– the powerful resurrection that fulfilled the promise of new life for those that believe in Him, but that’s for another day. The point of this post is to say this- NONE OF US ARE WORTHY OF THIS! NO NOT ONE!!! We cannot be good enough to earn this love that He freely gives & we cannot be so bad that it changes His love! NONE OF US DESERVES SUCH LOVE & SACRIFICE! It’s a gift! FREELY given if you don’t know this Jesus, please let me introduce you– you’ll never be the same! NEVER! His love & a relationship with Him changes EVERYTHING!!

 

I’m here if you need a hand to hold on your journey. This is why I say “Merry Christmas”- HE’S THE REASON! Be blessed today. Click To Tweet

 

 

PRAYER

Jesus,

Thank you for showing me the way of love. I only need “to confess with my mouth and believe with my heart and I am saved”.  I receive your love, forgiveness, and grace into my heart.

Thank you for coming to this earth, for taking on my Sins on yourself and giving me the gift of eternal life.  We will be together forever. I am looking forward to this for myself and others.  Amen.

 

 

 

 

Christians United Ministries is a non-profit ministry that is bringing hope and healing to broken hearts and lives. Would you consider giving a year-end gift to continue to bring this ministry to so many who need a revelation of Jesus healing power and love?  “The receiving is in the giving”.  Thank you and Merry Christmas. [Go to www.cumi.live/donate]. 

 

 

 

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Post by Brandy Edenfield

 

 

 

Sitting with my tree this morning & thinking about last night’s group & these words from a book we are reading (the author speaking of women) describes us as:

 

 “warrior, courageous, fighter.”

 

As I let my mind dissect the meaning of each word, it begins to wander into the lives of women I know- some of which I don’t know well but I follow them on social media or they’re a friend of a friend or a parent of a kid I know or they live far away.

 

 

 

 Warrior | Courageous | Fighter

Many different women in different situations. I suddenly realize I’ve lost focus & try to come back to these three words & I feel the gentle urging of Holy Spirit in my heart say “Think on these women, they’re not “distractions” they are the evidence of these three words that I’ve allowed you to witness, the proof that I created women as mighty WARRIORS, COURAGEOUSLY moving through each day & a with a deep down FIGHTER spirit as they conquer their situations. Acknowledge what is often overlooked. These are MY GIRLS, in whom I am well pleased!”

 

  • So, to the woman that is separated and navigating through her first Christmas alone but found the courage to buy new decor for her tree, declaring a fresh startI SEE YOU!!
  • The mama raising five boys on her own, yet taking care of herself at the same time to show them what a superwoman looks likeI SEE YOU!
  • The woman who has lost a child yet finds a way to walk with others through the same nightmare, teaching about “new normal” I SEE YOU! 
  • The woman that has dedicated her life to homemaking & being home with little ones, trying desperately to find joy in the diapers & tearsI SEE YOU!
  • The working mom that has the heart of an entrepreneur & a fierce desire to contribute to the working world yet battles guilt & feels judged by others because she loves workingI SEE YOU!
  • The woman who’s had her heart broken by a man she loved & trusted & yet finds the courage to believe that love still exists as she enters a new relationshipI SEE YOU!
  • The woman packing up her life to move across the country because she believes with all her heart that “there’s gotta be more”I SEE YOU!
  • The mother whose child is battling addiction or depression and you desperately try to surrender your child to the Lord & trust Him to be all they need yet battle with fear & worry to the point that it’s consuming you- I SEE YOU!

 

I SEE YOU ALL!!! HEAR ME- I SEE YOU!!! And so, does the Father! He sees you in the shower when you cry so no one else can hear you. He sees you balancing your checkbook wondering how in the world you’ll manage all the bills, let alone make Christmas gifts happen. He sees you when you’re in your car all alone & screaming because you’re so angry or overwhelmedHE SEES YOU!!

 

PRAYER

 

At this moment- if you’ll close your eyes & settle your mind, you’ll hear Him say:

Baby girl, I see you. And as I look upon you, I see my masterpiece in whom I am very proud. I know this is hard, but you are stronger than you think. What I will do in you, through this situation is more than you can imagine & it will change the lives of others. Trust me with your pain & your burdens, I’ll bring you peace & rest. But in the meantime, I SEE YOUmy princess! I SEE YOU!

 

Posted by: In: Uncategorized 09 Nov 2018 1 comment
Blog Post by Anonymous

 

Tears on the floor.  When people ask me exactly what it is I do, I always begin with explaining our prayer methods and how much freedom we gain in our lives when we purpose and choose to forgive and break the bonds of the enemy on our lives. The short answer is that I facilitate Holy Spirit as He heals the brokenhearted. This picture, however, says it so much better than I ever could. One evening as I led a precious soul through a difficult prayer to forgive herself, the pain began to overwhelm her. I slid my chair closer to hers and laid a hand on her knee in support. The jacket across her knees was soaked with her tears.  That’s when I looked down and saw the tears on the floor. They represented 20 years of self-bitterness locked inside.

 

Sometimes the hardest person to forgive is ourselves.Click To Tweet

 

 

 

 

As my client freed her tears, God freed her heart.  These tears are her freedom poured out.  It was an incredible moment to be present to see God heal that place in her. So grateful He let me be in the room when He did that work in her heart. This is what we do at Christians United Ministrieswe take your hand and walk with you as God heals and restores. This is the real life of what God allows us to do.

 

 

 

 

 

“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed. He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord’s favor has come, and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair.  In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory. They will rebuild the ancient ruins, repairing cities destroyed long ago. They will revive them, though they have been deserted for many generations”.Isaiah 61:1-3 (NLT)

 

 

PRAYER

Heavenly Father, by my free will I choose to forgive ________________ (the person) for _____________(what they did).  I release them and cancel their debt and obligation to me and mine to them.  Lord, I know I can’t change them, I can only change myself.

I command all negative trigger points through sights, sounds, smells, taste, and feelings associated with any spirit of trauma to be broken in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, I cancel all shame and guilt. I repent for my part and/or sinful feelings and responses to this situation. I forgive myself because you have forgiven me. I cancel all of satan’s power and authority over me in this memory/situation.  Set this straight inside of me Lord.

Thank you, Jesus for loving me, Holy Spirit, heal, my mind, body, spirit and soul. Tell me YOUR truth. What is it Lord You want me to know?

In Jesus name, I pray.

Amen

Based on James 4:7 Using the 4 Steps to Freedom Model [Personalize to fit your prayer needs.]

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Blog Post by Twila Crawford

Have you ever wondered or asked yourself the question, “Love me…Love me not?” and where it originated from? I know I have. Let me share with you a vulnerable time in my life and the healing journey to hope and freedom I have that set me free. The question of “Love me….Love me not” originated in my heart when I was raped at the age of 7.  I didn’t feel safe to tell. Fearing my dad, who was a violent alcoholic, my mom would oftentimes be the object of his wrath. So I decided in my little heart that it was safer for me and everyone else not to tell. Little did I know that a part of me would be stuck in the trauma of that moment hidden from my own heart. Buried in feelings of being abandoned, betrayed and unprotected. My choice of silence and the resulting pain of such a trauma impacted my future choices in life in a huge way. Failed marriages, bumpy relationships with others and an unhealthy fear of God. I used words to build walls, to control environments and situations I felt particularly vulnerable in. There was a “No trespassing” sign over my head. I sealed it with a vow in my little girl heart that I could not and would not rely on anyone, not even God fully.

An unloving spirit seeks to bring you into agreement with rejection in order to become a part of your identity.Click To Tweet

God never left me…as a loving Father He patiently set up circumstances and people that would bring about the healing I so desperately needed and deeply desired.

 

REACTIONS | PERCEPTIONS | ACTIONS

As you can see for me, the question of “Love…Love me not” was cloaked in rejection, abandonment and self -protection. What about you? Have you ever asked the question “Love me…Love me not?” from the deep places of your heart? I believe most, if not all, of us have in one season of life or another. [We were created for love and community: when that is missing, it causes many doubts and fears to arise in our hearts].  When we ask the “Love me…Love me not” question in the first place it’s an indication we are stuck in rejection, self- rejection and self-hatred. As stated earlier, the result of trauma and wounds found in relationships that were perceived as once safe, where you loved with you heart fully open. Being driven by fear we are incapable of being vulnerable or transparent. This leaves us without the possibility of having healthy relationships until healing occurs. Some of the unhealthy responses I experienced due to wounding were:

 

  • Being hyper critical of others.
  • Anger rooted in all kinds of fears.
  • Compromising spirit due to not knowing who we are due to wounds.
  • Unworthy.
  • Isolation.
  • Depression.
  • Perfectionism.
  • Highly talkative to build walls around your heart.
  • Walled off.
  • Vows of never going to let anyone in or hurt me again.
  • Sickness and diseases begin to attack the body, mind and blocks our spirit from being able to receive the love of God for ourselves. Making it impossible to truly love ourselves or others.
  • Retaliation among other things.

 

HEALING | INTIMACY IS POSSIBLE

Through Crossing2Freedom I made the choice to make this healing journey [it is a journey not a destination in that we will be on this journey until we meet Jesus]. All of the things I was afraid to see or admit were brought to the forefront. God began to heal and restore my heart to love Him, myself and others as Jesus my rescuer did come and deliver me from this deep darkness. The vow was broken. I am free. How about you? Are you ready to be free? I encourage you on your own journey to be brave. There is peace in the freedom and knowing that He, pursues you, is bent on having your whole heart. He is trustworthy.

 

Jesus states in I John 4:19 “We love because he first loved us.” He deeply loves and desires us. The road isn’t always easy, because it does mean to courageously look at in the light of truth, all that you have been afraid to see. Now I can entrust myself to others and trust Abba to protect and keep my heart and relationships in Christ. This is LOVE! There isn’t a love me not anywhere to be found. He who sets free, is free indeed!

 

Romans 8:15 “The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again, rather; the Spirit you receive brought about your adoption to sonship. And by Him we cry,“Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.

 

 

PRAYER

Abba, I ask that you begin to lead this one on their own healing journey to never have to ask the question, “Love me…Love me not?” ever again.  But to fully know they are loved, accepted and known by YOU.  Let this truth be their new reality:  in that you so loved the us that you provided your Son Jesus as an atonement to restore |heal | deliver us to Yourself and to be all that we were created to be before the foundations of the world. In Jesus name, AMEN!

 

 

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Blog Post by Ann Kling

Have you ever observed a preschooler trying to place blocks into the same cut-out shape? Yep. The round peg fits the round hole and the square peg fits the square hole. It is amusing to watch the drama played out. Some will try and try again until they succeed. Others will throw the blocks in disgust while a few will just walk away, thinking it is impossible.

In 1443, Korea decided that to use Chinese characters for their language was “like trying to fit a square handle into a round hole”.  It is interesting how far back this saying goes.  The definition according to Free Dictionary is  “a person who does not fit in or is not comfortable with others or a particular situation.”

 

Am I a square peg?

After meditating on this topic for a week, I suddenly realized all my life I felt like I didn’t fit; I didn’t belong to my family of origin. I asked my parents when I was twelve if they would help me find my birth parents. What?! They were shocked. Yes; I look just like my daddy.  I felt like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.  Partly, because my mom rejected me and gave me mixed signals while my father was sweet but not emotionally connected to me.  Since this time I have gone to Crossing2Freedom classes and prayed through to forgive and release my parents.

I started thinking about being a Christian, a born-again follower of Jesus. Being a square peg that can’t fit into a round hole pretty much describes how we feel in the world’s system and often around unbelievers. Click To TweetThe Bible has lots to say about this, and I jotted down a few:

  • Do NOT copy the behavior and customs of the world. Romans 12:2
  • You used to live in sin, just like the rest of the world, obeying the devil. Ephesians 2:2
  • Don’t let ANYONE capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that comes from human thinking. Colossians 2:8
  • Some people claim they know God, but they deny Him by the way they live. Titus 1:16
  • Keep away from anything that might take God’s place in your hearts. 1 John 5:21

 

Stop Trying to Fit!

The world jokes about a “square” person being a party pooper. Of course, they say much worse things about Jesus and His followers; some even kill, maim, enslave, or imprison Believers.  Think ISIS for example.

So, according to the Word, if you are a square peg then you MUST STOP trying to fit into the round hole (the world’s system without Jesus). It won’t work. You will just scrape up your edges (ouch!)  and still not fit. Just CELEBRATE life with Jesus and be glad you no longer fit into the round hole.  How shall we respond to those who do fit into the round hole and try to pull us back or deliberately shun and hate us?  Realize “the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions.”  1 John 2:15,16.

  • Speak the truth in love. Ephesians 4:15
  • Pray for those who persecute you. Matthew 5:43,44
  • Forgive anyone who offends you. Remember the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Colossians 3:13
  • Let your good deeds shine.
  • Walk in humility 1 Peter 5:5
  • Love others and honor them Romans 12:10
  • Be kind and gentle and live in peace in as much as you are able.
One thing I have learned: It is only when I surrender to Holy Spirit for His power can I respond in love to those who don’t understand my relationship with Jesus, who try to shove this square peg into the world’s round hole. Click To Tweet

But, if they do not see any difference in the way that we live and their own lifestyle, why would they even be interested in what He has to offer? Can others say, “they have been with Jesus.”

 

Prayer

 

“Father, I am thankful that you have rescued me from the world’s system, filled me with your Holy Spirit, and have guaranteed my eternal life with you. Empower me to love and forgive those who still fit in the world and who try to make me fit too. May my life reflect your truth and your love, so they will desire to become “a square peg that can no longer fit into a round hole.”