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Posted by: In: Uncategorized 05 Sep 2018 2 comments
Blog Post by Twila Crawford

Have you ever wondered or asked yourself the question, “Love me…Love me not?” and where it originated from? I know I have. Let me share with you a vulnerable time in my life and the healing journey to hope and freedom I have that set me free. The question of “Love me….Love me not” originated in my heart when I was raped at the age of 7.  I didn’t feel safe to tell. Fearing my dad, who was a violent alcoholic, my mom would oftentimes be the object of his wrath. So I decided in my little heart that it was safer for me and everyone else not to tell. Little did I know that a part of me would be stuck in the trauma of that moment hidden from my own heart. Buried in feelings of being abandoned, betrayed and unprotected. My choice of silence and the resulting pain of such a trauma impacted my future choices in life in a huge way. Failed marriages, bumpy relationships with others and an unhealthy fear of God. I used words to build walls, to control environments and situations I felt particularly vulnerable in. There was a “No trespassing” sign over my head. I sealed it with a vow in my little girl heart that I could not and would not rely on anyone, not even God fully.

An unloving spirit seeks to bring you into agreement with rejection in order to become a part of your identity.Click To Tweet

God never left me…as a loving Father He patiently set up circumstances and people that would bring about the healing I so desperately needed and deeply desired.



As you can see for me, the question of “Love…Love me not” was cloaked in rejection, abandonment and self -protection. What about you? Have you ever asked the question “Love me…Love me not?” from the deep places of your heart? I believe most, if not all, of us have in one season of life or another. [We were created for love and community: when that is missing, it causes many doubts and fears to arise in our hearts].  When we ask the “Love me…Love me not” question in the first place it’s an indication we are stuck in rejection, self- rejection and self-hatred. As stated earlier, the result of trauma and wounds found in relationships that were perceived as once safe, where you loved with you heart fully open. Being driven by fear we are incapable of being vulnerable or transparent. This leaves us without the possibility of having healthy relationships until healing occurs. Some of the unhealthy responses I experienced due to wounding were:


  • Being hyper critical of others.
  • Anger rooted in all kinds of fears.
  • Compromising spirit due to not knowing who we are due to wounds.
  • Unworthy.
  • Isolation.
  • Depression.
  • Perfectionism.
  • Highly talkative to build walls around your heart.
  • Walled off.
  • Vows of never going to let anyone in or hurt me again.
  • Sickness and diseases begin to attack the body, mind and blocks our spirit from being able to receive the love of God for ourselves. Making it impossible to truly love ourselves or others.
  • Retaliation among other things.



Through Crossing2Freedom I made the choice to make this healing journey [it is a journey not a destination in that we will be on this journey until we meet Jesus]. All of the things I was afraid to see or admit were brought to the forefront. God began to heal and restore my heart to love Him, myself and others as Jesus my rescuer did come and deliver me from this deep darkness. The vow was broken. I am free. How about you? Are you ready to be free? I encourage you on your own journey to be brave. There is peace in the freedom and knowing that He, pursues you, is bent on having your whole heart. He is trustworthy.


Jesus states in I John 4:19 “We love because he first loved us.” He deeply loves and desires us. The road isn’t always easy, because it does mean to courageously look at in the light of truth, all that you have been afraid to see. Now I can entrust myself to others and trust Abba to protect and keep my heart and relationships in Christ. This is LOVE! There isn’t a love me not anywhere to be found. He who sets free, is free indeed!


Romans 8:15 “The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again, rather; the Spirit you receive brought about your adoption to sonship. And by Him we cry,“Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.




Abba, I ask that you begin to lead this one on their own healing journey to never have to ask the question, “Love me…Love me not?” ever again.  But to fully know they are loved, accepted and known by YOU.  Let this truth be their new reality:  in that you so loved the us that you provided your Son Jesus as an atonement to restore |heal | deliver us to Yourself and to be all that we were created to be before the foundations of the world. In Jesus name, AMEN!



Posted by: In: Faith 08 Mar 2018 1 comment

Guest Post By: Ann Kling

The flowers are wilted, the chocolates gone, and the cards tossed into a drawer. St Valentine’s day was celebrated this year by Americans, costing us $18 billion; but in 269 AD it cost St. Valentine his life! WHY? He dared to secretly perform Christian marriages, violating the Roman Emperor’s edit. It forbade young men to marry as the Emperor didn’t want his soldiers worrying about the wives back home while they were on the battlefield.

No Greater Love

We honor St. Valentine on February 14th as he obeyed God rather than man. The best definition for love, in my opinion, is found in John 15:13, “There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friend.”

  • A self-sacrificing love;
  • a fellow soldier falling on a grenade and sparing others;
  • a father who drowns while saving his child;
  • a coach who steps in front of students, taking the bullets meant for them.
Jesus said for us to love one another as He loved us. That’s a tall order because when He demonstrated God’s love to the world, it cost Him His life too.Click To Tweet

Unconditional Love

I may not take a bullet to prove my love, but I will need to take an inventory of my life to see if I can truly love another unconditionally. If I take an honest look at my life, I might find that my motives are self-centered, selfish, and self-protective. I may be showing love by giving gifts on Valentine’s Day but what do I expect in return? Because of hurts in childhood and poor examples of love, I might not know what it looks like to love unconditionally (expecting nothing in return).

By going through the Crossing2Freedom classes, I gained the tools to examine my life and allow Holy Spirit to reveal the hurts, wounds, bitterness, and unforgiveness I harbored in my heart. By accepting Jesus’ payment for my own sins and failures, I received God’s forgiveness and healing. Now I can love others as Jesus loves me because I can truly forgive as I have been forgiven. It is a daily giving up my self-protective ways to be vulnerable in relationships so that true love can be expressed. Jesus said to love my neighbor as I love myself.

Yes! I love myself because I look at myself through His eyes, seeing forgiveness and unconditional love. I have forgiven myself and can now easily forgive others, from the past, the present and future!Click To Tweet

Giving chocolates, flowers, and Valentine’s cards is a tangible way to express love to another but laying down my life in a self-sacrificing way will last far beyond the wilted flowers, an empty chocolate box, and cards in a drawer. I want to demonstrate unconditional love every day, not just on Valentine’s Day. What about you?

“Father, in Jesus’ name, fill us with your love so we can love others.”

Posted by: In: Faith, Parenting 13 Dec 2017 2 comments

Jan Hicks
President, CUMI

Here I am on a flight somewhere between Alabama and Texas…thinking about my ex from 39 years ago. Am I being unfaithful to my husband? NO.

Those are not the thoughts that have been brought to my mind often since Sept. 19, 2017, the day a well check from the police in Jacksonville, FL discovered that Mike had died.

Unanswered Questions

The sad news was that he had not passed the day they found him. In fact, they have yet to determine how long before that day he took his last breath or why.

Hurricane Irma was heading towards Jacksonville and many neighbors left the area; Mike chose not to. His body was discovered on the 15th. Although again, his death occurred much before that time the coroner states.

Why? Why did no one know? Why were his two children not called?

Mike had long since become more of a hermit/loner in his alcoholic, wounded state of life. He was a product of his past and didn’t know how to not remain a prisoner of it. His years of abandonment, betrayal and rejection by an alcoholic father led him to declare and vow that he would never do that to his children. Yet he did!

The Good Years

I can recall some good years of our marriage. High school sweethearts, we had two boys together (now 48 and 46 years of age). The Vietnam War effected Mike, added more pain to the years of not seeing or knowing where his own father was.

I remember the first time I met his father – in 1971. It had been nine years since Mike had last heard from him. He did try to step back into Mike’s life, but alcohol stepped harder.

Our sons tried to be relational with Mike often over the years. He, too, would invest for a short time, then fall back away into that hermit state of loneliness.

Unexpected Emotions

On Sept. 19, the day our son told me of Mike’s death, unusual and unexpected emotions overcame me. After 39 years and barely any communication, I would have never expected any emotions. I guess I assumed I would have just taken such news as just that – “news” or a “statement of fact.”

When the flood of feelings came, I was in shock. They were not feelings as if the love of my life died. No, I’m married to the love of my life now and have been for 26 years. Instead, it was an overwhelming feeling of sadness, madness, anger and regret.

I was sad he did not know his sons and how amazing they are. He didn’t know how much they love their children, their success in life and most of all, their precious hearts.

I was sad that out of his five grandchildren, he had met two. He met the oldest at his own mothers’ funeral when she was just 18 months old; she’s now 24. The other grandchild he met when she was around 17 when she took a road trip with her dad to check on Mike who was in a rehab from a serious broken leg after a fall that left him on the floor for eight days before being discovered. Loneliness creeps in again.

His 5 grandchildren are 7-24 years of age and absolutely beautiful inside and out. Mike lived no more than six hours away all these years. How could that happen? How? How could you not see your children, your grandchildren, how?

My emotions turned to anger. I was angry that he didn’t try harder – that he let alcohol win. That he let his own fears and self-rejection become stronger than love. He did not know how to love.

I know all that now. I myself was guilty of not being there for our children either in my years of alcohol and drugs. The God of Recompense, Jehovah Gomalah brought full restoration in my relationship with my sons. I love them and know them deeply.

Now I teach it, try to live it, better understand it, but I could not help Mike. Would he even have received help? Was alcohol stronger? Did he know Jesus, really know Jesus?

I’m not only sorry for what he missed in life, but I’m sorry for our sons. Their children did not get to know the man: the dad I first married and the man who truly wanted to love but just didn’t know how. I’m sorry our children and our grandchildren will never get the opportunity to know the real Mike. Death took that away.

The emotions of sad, mad, anger, hate, rejection, betrayal, grief, sorrow, pain were evident in conversation with my boys. The mask of, “He was never there for us anyway,” was hiding the truth of, “I needed my father. I wanted my father. I wanted my father to love me, need me and fight for me.”


Our Father >> Our Restorer

So many fathers have not been equipped to give what is needed because they never received it for themselves. Only our Heavenly Father can restore what we’ve lost, replace what was missing and bring peace to us in the storms of life and death.

It’s now Nov. 20th as I complete what I started weeks ago. My boys are still on hold – unable, yet willing to bring closure. Their dad’s remains just arrived a week ago. There is still no death certificate; it hasn’t been released.

Here, months later, there is nothing they can do to complete the grief process of death. The waiting for closure is still in their hearts.

My Prayer Request

Pray for my sweet sons, pray they face their deep true feelings and allow those feelings to be washed and cleansed by Jesus so their life does not continue to filter through what they never received. Thank you.

I have learned much over these past 26 years. Learned how to overcome by examining the past, the walls, and the filters life goes through from examples and false identity lies from the enemy. I am an overcomer and want to help others be the same regardless of what life has been like. God has planted a team of like-minded people in the ministry the Lord asked Don and I to begin in 1999. I would love to hear your story and challenges as well. We know the answer….HIS name is Jesus.

What is your story? How can we help?

I encourage you to contact us at Christians United Ministries at: www.cumi.live or 774.567.0771. We have a great team of Certified Prayer Ministers trained to counsel, coach and love you right where you are. We are all about the heart!

Our Prayer

Heavenly Father, help us to forgive those who leave this earth with so many questions unanswered. Help us to trust you and rest in your sovereignty. You are high above it all and we know that nothing is wasted with You. Everything is in Your mighty hands. Bring comfort to those who need it most who are struggling with the loss of a loved one – especially during this Christmas season. In Jesus’ beautiful Name, Amen

Jan Hicks is president of Christians United Ministries. Her ministry is dedicated to the pursuit of inner healing. Jan is also an international speaker, teacher, author and Christian Counselor. She welcomes you to connect with her through the official Christians United Ministries website, www.janhicks.org, or through her official ministry Facebook page.

Posted by: In: Events, Missions 15 Oct 2017 2 comments

Although we were quite busy, what a great adventure Brenda Stuart, La and I had these last 2 weeks as we ministered in Tennessee. The worship at every event ushered the presence of God into the atmosphere.

Our trip began with a three-day conference at Vineyard Church, Milan. We encountered many testimonies of how God changed hearts: men and women who were able to forgive those who hurt them and see their offenders in a new light as wounded people themselves. People in need of spiritual healing and freedom came forth in a steady rhythm.

One particular lady was dealing with the pain and shame of her 17-year-old stepson being arrested that very morning. He was involved in a gang and had taken the life of two others just a couple of days before. It was indeed a heart-breaking, very scary situation for the whole community. She witnessed that the Lord replaced the feelings of fear, pain and uncertainly with peace, safety and security.

Women of Hope

Our next meeting was at Hope Recovery – Women of Hope in Medon where I was asked to teach the final chapter of Crossing2Freedom. What an honor! A chapel service followed and the Lord made a way for me to pray over everyone there; some spouses and visitors came as well. As I anointed with oil, Holy Spirit brought healing to the hearts of those who just days before witnessed an intensely traumatic experience when one of their own ladies, almost 9 months pregnant, had an amniotic embolism (blood clot) taking her life immediately. Her baby lived a day and a half. Both were buried together just days before. Seeing God release HIS peace and love in that serious place of grief and trauma brought tears of joy to my eyes.

A private home meeting followed with a precious group of men and women who had completed the Crossing2Freedom curriculum. I handed out their Certificates of Completion and then heard the testimonies of Jesus’ healing power in their lives.

Oh to be changed by Jesus….now that’s total Freedom!

Private Ministry, Paris Landing Women’s Ministry & More

Besides some private ministry at different times of the day and night, the following weekend (Thurs. – Sun.) was spent at Paris Landing, a beautiful facility located on the Tennessee River. We met a couple times a day for teachings and assignments. God taught us about ungodly beliefs and how to change our brains to accept the truth of who we are. It was all women, although the ages ranged from 8 to 70+ years. Wow! How delightful to see those little young eyes attentive to the lies of the devil that they do not have to believe and the mature ones recognizing what to get rid of.

Licensing & Ordination

During that weekend, Ronald Michel and Loretta Pemberton were recognized for their years of service as we Licensed and Ordained them under our ministry umbrella. What an asset they will be in TN and beyond!

I hope this gives you just a glimpse into this 2 weeks of my life and the Christians United Ministries Team Jesus. We love what we do.

You make it possible for us to continue.

Some of those places we travel are unable to provide the financial resources needed for us to bring them the ministry opportunities they need, but because of your giving hearts we can pour into them by providing the Crossing2Freedom books and releasing a representative of CUMI to go each week to pray with and teach them how to live life to the fullest through Jesus Christ. We are blessed.

Many thanks as you continue to sow into great Kingdom soil!

Jan Hicks , CUMI
President and Founder

Posted by: In: Faith, Missions 05 Sep 2017 0 comments

Influence Defined

Influence – What does this word mean to you? Is influence about DNA or family heritage, or does environment play a greater part in shaping us through influence? Maybe we’re a culmination of all of these.

Meeting Mateo

On a recent trip to several Mexico orphanages/shelters, I had the incredible privilege of meeting an adorable little boy named Mateo (Matthew). Mateo had been at one of the shelters for a year and the director guesstimates that Mateo was approximately three years old when he arrived, making him four when I met him. Mateo’s story touched me deeply and he was the cutest kid ever.  When police found Mateo, they phoned the boys shelter and asked if they had room for a two-year-old boy.

The director of the shelter shared her recollection of Mateo’s arrival with me. She remarked, “Mateo was so malnourished giving the appearance of a two-year-old, but we quickly realized that this bright little boy was in fact a three-year-old based on his developmental markers.”

Mateo, found living on the streets, was abandoned by his parents who authorities now believe were both drug addicts and no other relatives could be located.

A Natural Born Leader

He has done very well at the shelter; he is now the size of a healthy four-year-old boy.

He is exceptionally intelligent and “a natural born leader” according to the director.

“However,” she shared, “we were initially met with the challenge of teaching Mateo appropriate speech.” Our team looked at her with confusion. She went on to share that as a “street kid” Mateo had been taken in by older street kids who took care of him and he came in “talking like a gangster.”

We laughed inside but realized the challenge that must have been and the words he must have said. Can you imagine?

The Influence of Environment

I kept thinking of Mateo and how he had been influenced by his environment. How, at three, Mateo had seen things and heard things that were showing up in his mannerisms and his speech.

This inspired me to look at and question my own life – my accent as a southern woman, the slang words I use that I heard my parents use and now my children and their children use them as well, the foods I enjoy and the people that introduced me to them, even the social behaviors I find acceptable based on my life experience.

See, Mateo didn’t try to talk like or behave like a gangster, he simply mimicked the examples he had in his life, in his daily surroundings.

How should our behavior and speech be?  Should we display behavior and speak words that we know dishonor Jesus?  Rationalizing that, “we’ve always heard that or said that?” Should we yell at our children or spouse because that’s what we saw growing up? Should a man believe his sole job in his home is to provide financially because it’s what his father did? Should we follow traditions that are no longer relevant in current times? Should we share our dislike for the new music at church because “it doesn’t sound like church music should sound?” Should we dislike a certain “neighbor” because our parents did? Should we accept things on TV or in music that don’t line up with our values because “times are changing and that’s become the new norm?”

Our Ultimate Influencer

As followers of Christ, Jesus should be our influencer. Our words and mannerisms should look like Him and bring glory to His name. People should want to know our God based on our life and our love. We should question the influences in our life and ask how they line up with God’s Word and His character.

Ask God to make you an influence to those in your life. Strive to live a life that looks like Jesus. We can change, grow, and develop into who HE desires us to be. I want that in my life. To say I’m there would not be true, but I’m surely not where I use to be and I know I can ask Him daily for wisdom and guidance to be like HIM and HE is faithful to respond.

What, or who is your greatest Influence?

It’s a great day to evaluate and make intentional decisions to make forward changes in life.  I sure am.

Bless you, Jan Hicks

Scriptures for Meditation

~ Proverbs 7:1-4 

1Follow my advice, my son; always treasure my commands.
Obey my commands and live! Guard my instructions as you guard your own eyes.
Tie them on your fingers as a reminder. Write them deep within your heart.
Love wisdom like a sister; make insight a beloved member of your family.

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How many thousands of drug-filled needles rules my life?

Jan Hicks, Pastor and President of CUMI, has truly been a pioneer towards the cause of helping people walk in the freedom God designed for them to enjoy. Her ministry is dedicated to the pursuit of inner healing and we pray that you are blessed and divinely inspired by the word God has given her to share with all of us.

Jan is also an international speaker, teacher, author and Christian Counselor. She welcomes you to connect with her through the official Christians United Ministries  Facebook page.

I encourage you to press in and read on to receive the blessing of the following blog post on the freedom and forgiveness available through Jesus – Golden Veins!

Guest Post by Jan Hicks

Pride, shame, guilt, fear, false expectations….using what I thought protected me, were the many tricks of the enemy to destroy me. At 30 years of age, I wore my true feelings inside and had a mask of “having it all together” outside.

A nurse and divorced mother of two amazing young boys, I put a needle filled with cocaine in my arms – how could I? What led me to that choice? What was I thinking? What about my children, my job and my family?

Like most addictions, it’s driven by another source, rooted in shame. I carried a sense of pride in my achievements and guilt from my failures. It began the moment a man in my life challenged me as I discovered his addiction with a statement something like, “You can’t help me with something you know nothing about, you would be addicted too.”

That was like a dare, a challenge to prove him wrong. At that moment, I stuck out my arm to prove to him I could do cocaine and not get hooked. I knew I was not as weak as he was and I told him so …… the rest is history.

For 12 years I stole, lied, cheated, bought, sold, traded whatever I needed for drugs of all types. I was addicted.

Escape Route

How did I get here; how do I get out? I didn’t know the answer. I knew what I needed to do but those thoughts were like a vapor that lasted a short time before something else took its place. I was broken and no one could fix me. I was broken and I could not fix myself.

The night I surrendered to Jesus, wasn’t planned, wasn’t prepared, just happened. I started seeing the engine of the train of brokenness I was on and a glimpse of how to get off.

I was reminded of the Japanese art of Kintsukuroi, repairing broken pottery by highlighting the cracks, the brokenness with real gold. The pottery when treated this way, was more valuable than it was when it was whole. I knew I was broken, I did not know I was valuable in any form. I saw a picture of arms with gold over the veins that reminded me of that art form and it hit me – that was a picture of Gods forgiveness to me, for my choices.

Beauty for Brokenness

God started teaching me to see my scars as beauty instead of brokenness. I began the process of embracing my flaws and imperfections while allowing the fire of the Holy Spirit to burn out my impurities and bring healing and wholeness to those places where my choices, decisions, pride, fear, control, and more kept me in bondage to the enemy.

Discovering that I was not alone, I found that many others understood the journey of my bondage and my surrender. Many, like me, understood that even after surrender, the feeling of more brokenness emerged. The fear, shame and guilt of facing the truth of where I’ve been, what I’ve done surfaced. Learning how to grant myself the grace to forgive myself is when freedom really came.

When I truly forgave myself, only then could I really begin to make changes.

Today is the Day

Maybe that’s you today, regardless of the addiction or wrong choices you’re beating yourself up for. You’ve prayed and tried and cried and tried again, but you continue to beat yourself up and are your own worse enemy. Now’s a great day to see your broken places, tried by fire, filled with gold and become an art piece of God’s pure LOVE.

Forgive yourself. If HE has, you must. Just start by being willing and giving Jesus permission to heal you. That is your choice as well!

Let me lead you in this prayer:


Father, forgive me for not accepting Your forgiveness by holding myself in bondage to the lies of the enemy. I am forgiven; you have forgiven me. I cancel, break and destroy all the assignments of the enemy against my life. I release myself and forgive myself for choices long past. I am no longer who I was, but I am who you have called and created me to be. I am an overcomer, I am a winner, I was created to succeed. With your help Lord, I will continue to grow and learn from the Holy Spirit who will lead me each day as I give Him permission to move. Thank you Lord, speak into my heart and tell me what you want me to know about myself now. Who do YOU say that I am Lord?

In Jesus’ name, amen.

Scriptures for Meditation

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”

~ Mark 10:27

For no word from God will ever fail.

~ Luke 1:37

being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.

~ Romans 4:21

Ah, Sovereign Lord, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

 ~ Jeremiah 32:17
For you, God, tested us;
    you refined us like silver.
~ Psalm 66:10
This third I will put into the fire;
    I will refine them like silver
    and test them like gold.
They will call on my name
    and I will answer them;
I will say, ‘They are my people,’
    and they will say, ‘The Lord is our God.’”
~ Zachariah 13:9

The Art of Kintsukuroi

The Japanese art of Kintsukuroi, repairing broken pottery by highlighting the cracks with pure gold, involves fire and the close attention of the smith. The smith puts the ore in the fire to burn out some of the impurities, then takes it out and shapes it, then back in the fire. All the while he keeps a close eye on his precious metal.

The goal of the silversmith or goldsmith is to fashion a precious metal until it is pure and shines bright. He heats and works with his metal until he can see his reflection in it. One can only imagine how the silver or gold feels about this arduous process.

Psalm 66:10 says, “For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver.” Just as the silversmith refines his precious metal in the fire, God refines his precious children in the adversities of life. He does this for the same purpose as the smith puts his ore in the fire – to remove any impurities so that we will shine brightly and reflect His image. While we are in the “fire” He never takes His eyes off us, but keeps a close watch to determine when we’ve had all we can take for now. Better than the smith with his metal, God is with us in the fire as we are being refined.

God has said, “I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, ‘They are my people,’ and they will say, ‘The LORD is our God.’” Zechariah 13:9.

Posted by: In: Faith 13 Jul 2017 0 comments

When you think of the significant, positive experiences you’ve had in your faith walk, what do you think of? Who do you think of and why did they leave a mark on your heart? I love to hear people’s responses to these questions.

Each person has his or her own unique story and own interpretation of that experience. It’s a beautiful thing when a person shares their story with you.

You feel so encouraged, not only by the story itself, but more so by hearing it shared from that joyful place in the heart of the person that was impacted by the story. It’s so powerful!

Meet Gram

One of the people that impacted me very early in my life was my maternal grandmother, or Gram, as we called her. Gram was a Godly woman with a great deal of wisdom. She was generous in sharing her wisdom.




The lesson I’ve thought of most often over the years was one she taught me very early on in my faith.
About a month after my salvation, I went to visit Gram and share with her the changes that were happening in me and my life.

One particular change that I was wrestling with was with my best friend, Matt, a 26-year-old bar owner and atheist. Matt was not happy with the new me and frequently asked when I was going to go back to my old self and stop with all the “religious” stuff. It was difficult, but I felt like I just needed to continue to “be a good influence” on Matt and pray he’d come around.

In sharing this with Gram over coffee, she said, “Baby, how tall is Matt?”

“6’2,” I replied.

She said, “How much does he weigh?”

I said, “About 200 lbs.”

She said, “How about you?”

I said, “I’m 5’6” and weigh about 125.”

Gram said, “What if you stood on top of this table and held Matt’s hand from the ground, trying to pull him up onto the table with you?”

I said, “I would probably fall off the table.”

Gram responded, “This is the same for your newfound faith, honey. Though your intentions are good, reality is, if you don’t let go of the hand of those still on the floor, they will likely pull you off the table before you pull them up.”

Scripture for Meditation

“Don’t team up with those who are unbelievers. How can righteousness be a partner with wickedness? How can light live with darkness?”

~ 2 Cor. 6:14

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About the Author

Jan Hicks, president of  Christians United Ministries, has committed her life to helping people walk in the freedom God designed for them to enjoy. Her ministry is dedicated to the pursuit of inner healing and we pray that you are blessed and divinely inspired by the word God has given her to share with all of us.

Jan Hicks also an international speaker, teacher, author and Christian Counselor. She welcomes you to connect with her through the official Christians United Ministries website, www.janhicks.org, or through her official ministry Facebook page.

We, at CUMI, encourage you to press in and read on to receive the blessing of the following blog post on the magnitude of our value in Christ – you are NOT one in a million!


Post by Jan Hicks

Are you valuable? What if I said you are NOT one in a million….but instead you are one in 500 Million!  Wow, that’s right.  On the day you were conceived, 50 to 500 million “cells” were released heading towards one egg to create YOU!  Can you imagine? Let’s put that in a different perspective. The combined population of the USA, Canada and Mexico in 2015 was 484 million.  Can you see yourself as “one” person standing in the midst of 484 million others? Can you imagine God looking down saying, “you are the one”.  YOU….!

The Father’s House, New Property Prayer

Identity Theft

That is a foreign statement to most of us and beyond our imagination. You see, the enemy of our soul wants us to feel unimportant, just another face, a nobody, the black sheep of the family, no good, the mess up.  If the enemy can steal our identity, then we easily accept rejection, depression, loneliness, fear, abuse, disease and turmoil as ‘normal’ in our lives.  We lose our Peace and Joy because we reject ourselves.

Loved & Chosen

God does not want us to figure this out; HE wants us to accept it as fact that we are valued and valuable.

Jesus wants to remind us so we can remind ourselves daily – “I am not rejected.”  That no matter what life looks like, feels like, acts like, the fact is, you were chosen and loved from the moment of conception and beyond.

Today is a great day to tell that Unloving Spirit, the FALSE Identity that you have accepted, to get up and get out of your mind, body, spirit and soul. It’s time to say, “God I repent for believing the lie. Help me receive the truth of who YOU created me to be.”


Pray this prayer out loud:

Father I may not feel like it, but I break the lie and today I accept the truth that I am valuable,  I am loved, lovely and lovable. You created me to succeed.  I cancel satans power to use this false identity against me.  I break satan’s assignments against my life.  I repent for not trusting you Lord.  Teach me how to do that Lord and how to love myself so that I can love others and accept your love Jesus.  Holy Spirit, I give you permission to heal my heart and release my true identity into me.  Lord speak your truth to me….who am I?  (now wait a moment and make note of the first thing that comes to your mind….)

I bless you today and always in the name of Jesus Christ – the living, loving Savior.

Scripture for Meditation

…‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”

~ Mark 12:31

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ALL ABOUT JESUSIt’s ALL ABOUT JESUS! He will meet you where you are and minister to you regardless of any other sources you may have available.

by Jan Hicks, Crossing 2 Freedom

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“Remember, you didn’t get this way in a day… Give yourself time to heal. Every time something new comes up, deal with it and don’t shove it down or pretend it away.”

by Jan Hicks

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We hope this powerful testimony of God’s miraculous physical healing will encourage your heart. Please join us in welcoming Allen Felts as our guest blogger this week. Here he shares his experience with being healed from TMJ, the inability to focus and more……..

169F0E7A-C70B-4006-9AF1-84D9A8C8A727Since I have started going through “Crossing2Freedom” and my one-on-one sessions with Jan Hicks at Christians United Ministries, Inc. (CUMI), I have noticed a tremendous difference in my life. I have seen favor released on my job in such a powerful way. I have also noticed a drastic change in areas like memory recall, ability to think clearly, focusing, etc.

After going through this process, I have experienced such a powerful sense of freedom & feel such a great peace in every area of my life.

For most of my life, I struggled with Attention Deficit Disorder and always had a very tough time getting my thoughts together. Since working with Jan and declaring freedom in those areas, I now realize what a powerful tool my mind is and how it had been held captive for so many years.

I truly saw God bring healing to my mind in a matter of weeks, something that medicine had not been able to accomplish. Through this process of Crossing2Freedom, I have even seen physical healing & restoration in my body.

About 6 months ago, I started having stress and anxiety issues that led to TMJ.  After declaring freedom in those areas and applying peace, I can now say that the TMJ issues have resolved.  I am so thankful for Jan and her dedication to being an instrument to bring healing and freedom to the body of Christ.

by Allen Felts | 2017

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by Deanne Day

5C4A1F624D374641BD33F6631C73FE49“The body cannot tell the difference between the actual events, and the re-telling of those events. Each time you repeat an event that has a toxic emotion associated with that event, you are doing damage to your body! No wonder God tells us to forgive before sundown.”

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By: Brandy Edenfield

Brandy EdenfieldWe’ve all seen those Hidden Image pictures right? You know, the ones that appear to be one thing, but there is actually another image inside the picture. My husband is one of those people who can see the hidden image rather quickly. While I, on the other hand, could squint and cross my eyes a hundred different times and still never see the hidden picture. Even after he tells me what I’m looking for or he says things like “Concentrate. Look through the picture” (whatever that means, I still don’t know!). And to this day, I’ve never been able to see even one of those hidden images.

During the time that God was preparing my heart to write this blog, I was invited into two situations in the lives of two families close to mine in less than 24 hours. Initially both events stirred deep sadness and confusion in me.  First, our close friends of 17 years reached out to Brian and I for counsel and direction, announcing their separation. We were shocked! These people love Jesus. They both say they still love each other. How does this happen?

Second, a call about a family friend whose 16-year-old daughter attempted to take her own life and is now in a coma on life support and the prognosis from the doctors isn’t good. My heart physically hurt for this poor mother who was reeling with fear and guilt. And what compounded my hurt for her is that this family doesn’t know Jesus, so these parents are facing this without the hope and peace that He alone gives us in a crisis.

My heart was breaking for these two families. I had so many questions. I needed to get with God. I needed to ask Him why?  Where was He in this? How could these awful things be happening on His watch?

So you can imagine my surprise when God began to reminded me of these frustrating pictures. I began asking Him how these pictures relate to Him and to us? And though my human mind will never fully understand His ways, here is what I feel He showed me: God sees everything from a very different view point than we do. A much bigger picture. Our view is like someone who’s standing inside a massive fore. His is from that of one looking over the top of a miniature model of a forest. Yet it’s the same forest.

My human eye sees the hurt, the fear and the sadness. I even sometimes perceive from my view that the enemy is winning. I can not see from His view, but I can imagine some possibilities: the broken marriages that our friends will help repair through their testimony of restoration. Or how their children will have healthier marriages because of the communication and commitment that was demonstrated for them by their parents. Or the new level of joy and ministry God wants to take them to.

Or the salvation of an entire family who were completely lost and without hope before a crisis showed them they couldn’t make it without Him. Or a healed 16 year old, that uses her life to speak to other girls battling thoughts of suicide and depression and the lives saved because of her work. Or maybe even just renewed and restored  relationships in their home.

We won’t know until we get to Heaven how our lives and the lives of others have all been woven together to create His perfect picture.  On this earth, we are similar to me with those hidden image picture. Our questions of “why?” or “how?” or “what if?” are equivalent to me squinting and crossing my eyes. We are unable to see the bigger picture from where we stand. We can’t see it yet. Not here. But, He is God and He is good. One day we will see the intricate ways He used the details and the hurts in our lives to bring more people to Him. By faith we believe in the HIDDEN IMAGE.

Scripture for Meditation

“ The Lord looks from Heaven: He sees all the sons of men. From the place of His dwelling He looks on all the inhabitants of the earth.” ~ Psalms 33:13-14 (NKJV)

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Brandy Edenfield

Brandy Edenfield

Asking God what He wanted me to share in this second blog and feeling a whole lot of uncertainty for about a week now as nothing came. Oh, how I could write an entire book on God’s “quiet” seasons in my life. The times when I struggle with patience because His voice is silent and I know this means “wait”. It’s SO HARD! And I began to feel that His silence was a leading to share about waiting, but this morning I ran across an old story I read quite some time ago (author unknown) and I immediately felt it was the right word to share.

“A young woman went to her grandmother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her – her husband had cheated on her and she was devastated. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up.

Her grandmother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her granddaughter, she asked, ‘Tell me what you see.’

‘Carrots, eggs, and coffee,’ she replied.

“Feel the carrots” she said. She did and noted that they were soft. The grandmother then took the egg and broke it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.

Finally, she asked the granddaughter to sip the coffee. The granddaughter smiled as she tasted the coffee. The granddaughter then asked, ‘What does it mean, grandmother?’

Her grandmother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.”

What is God calling you to be in your situation? Are you hard like the carrot, rigid and unwilling to be flexible when God requests it of you? Matthew 12:6 MSG says “There is far more at stake here than religion. If you had any idea what this scripture meant-‘I prefer a flexible heart to an inflexible ritual’- you wouldn’t be nitpicking like this.” Are you like the egg, so fragile and easily broken that every obstacle  tempts you to abandon the race God has called you to run? Psalm 31:24 MSG says “Be brave. Be strong. Don’t give up.” Or maybe you are like the ground coffee beans, simple (in your flesh), individually a  seemingly un-noteworthy presence that is just “existing” and feels lost in a crowd? But combined with Christ, you are a world changer. ISAIAH 40:29 NLT says “He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.”